oh gosh im now on face book yaayyy is strangly adicting. i am tired just another poinyless anoncment

Introduction



I suppose it all began when I was very small when our good emperor died and left his son the kingdom. I suppose that's what it started
When people began disappearing in the cities one by one. I suppose no one thought it strange or unusual or they're just too afraid to admit it but the empire was disposing of them one by one disposing of us one by one. That was the way it started. Slowly first and then quickly second then we are banned from the cities and any towns surrounding them. My parents knew the end, and knew that the only safe place for me was on the side of our enemy, the empire.

They set me out to a training school for young knights I was 10. I did not go on holiday because my family had disappeared into the foreign countries beside us. To everyone there I was an orphan, a would-be squire for the rest of my life. being a short skinny i had no muscle, and as the tutor said I had no brain in my head. For this reason I was an outcast. The one thing I was good at though, was swimming which is how I acquired my name. Frog thats what everyone calls me at least now, it was really Ramsey's fault but then again it's always his fault. Ramsey my dear fellows is my best most dearest, closest friend. Even though he gave me that horrid nickname it always seem to fit me well. We were an odd pair of friends Ramsey was tall Strong and decently smart the head of our class, but he was an awkward child being he is a troll. Though he has gotten over this now he was very antisocial didn't like to talk to people he didn't know. Well he's isn't now all he does is talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, well not that much that sounds more like me but he isn't antisocial anymore, he can at least have decent conversations with people he's not familiar with. And we still look strange next to each other.
But I digress our real problems started around the age of 14 Ramsey was always extremely talented in weaponry, muscle and brute strength. That was the problem trolls are amazingly useful when they don't get themselves killed the problem is at that Ramsey would go into fits of rage during a fight this is normal for troll, it is something like a self preservation method since most trolls don't have a brain, even though Ramsey does. All they have is brute strength to stay alive all they all they uses is muscle. So when Ramsey was fighting it didn't matter who. he would turn into a juggernaut. And it was fine. Except during training when they were sparring he killed a boy. Now this problem isn't necessarily Ramsey's fault he has little to no control over what he does during this moment. The only person they found that Ramsey wouldn't hurt kill mangle or world horribly disfigure, was me. Yes aren't I lucky I get to spar every day with a big scary troll. Now Ramsey at this time was about 6 foot I was about 5'4 two 5'5 sense a wonderful age of 10 I've packed on some muscle but compared to Ramsey I looked like a tweak, dammit even know I still look like a twig compared to Ramsey he's just a big guy you got a get that now because he just is, and that's why Sherry doesn't like him because he's scary looking. Well there are other reasons to but that's the main one. Well maybe, you'll find out.

Ramsey never kept things from me, it killed me keeping it from him, keeping my secret from him. I knew he wouldn't tell but I was afraid someone else to find out, and I'd be executed with treason to the empire. but one day when Ramsey and I were sparring, it was later in the day and almost everyone had gone back to the dorms, but me and Ramsey. He was Hacking away at me, he never seemed to get tired. and with one smooth move, that ended almost every practice, he hit my feet out from under me with the wooden training sword and the long thong that held my cross under my shirt slipped out. His eyes opened wide with what emotion, I couldn't tell "Oh my dear god I thought" he will abandon me, he will hate me for not telling him. I scrunched my eyes together feeling the tears coming with uttermost despair. "Frog" I heard his sad tone wafting down to me as if it was on a breeze" why didn't you tell me?" he said I sat up slowly turning my head upwards and opening my eyes expecting to see an expression of utter dislike meant. But there was no anger no hate. Only confusion and sorrow, my lips moved "I thought you'd hate me, if not this, I said pointing to my cross "that you'd hate me for not telling you". Ramsey's eyebrows creased so that a wrinkle formed between them, than a glint of anger flowed into his eyes and seemed to radiate through his green veined to skin." What you take me for you stupid little shit? You think I would care to think I would give a fuck, you've been my only real friend to these hellhole years why would I care if you're one of them? Even worse though" he said" is that you thought I would." He was angry now."I would never do that to you!"
He screamed his face contorted into a mask of anger and hurt. "Well I didn't know, well yes" I said "I did know but I didn't just want to pop out and tell you." I shrugged and smiled awkwardly." Frog you've had five fucken years to tell me! You couldn't take five minutes out of your worthless little life to tell me this! Ramsey said talking down to me like usual at his full 6 feet in height glowering down at me like I was a worthless little piece of shit. "Well it's a lot harder than you think it is" I stuttered still on the ground looking up at him "good it'll give me some small reason not to pummel you an inch from your death. But you know what? I should anyway it'll be fun hearing you scream like a little girl all the way back to the dorms!"

Amazingly that was the start of our lifelong bond, now Ramsey had a secret too, but it didn't arise till we were about 17. Sometimes good people have problems. Ramsey had a very large one. At 17 we were decently normal boys, we'd even gotten a slight hand on Ramsey's anger management issues. And I amazingly have been selected for training for a higher ranking officer because of my mapreading and amazing strategies, yes I do have a brain after all.
Amazing isn't it. Well to get back. we liked girls like normal boys. And now, that Ramsey had come out of his shell the girls loved him. They flocked all around Mr. tall dark and handsome. He had grown and was still growing to a mighty 6''4 he had filled into his limbs, no longer was Ramsey gangly, but muscular and fit, me on the other hand, i was still remotely gangly and I was no longer short, but standing next to him I looked puny and for some reason all the girls fluttered at Ramsey's quietness. Now I don't know why my talking seemed put them off. But anyway this was the problem, we'd taken away Ramsey's bloodlust during practice. He'd managed to get the ability down of staying in control of his mind. Good right? Wrong. the first girl who took up Ramseys interest was tall and gorgeous with her golden and red tinted hair. I remember her well, our first experience with girls, our first because when you're at a Knights Academy they don't let you out until you're in your six to seventh year and there are no girls in the dorms or around the dorms or by the dorms or anywhere on the grounds well besides the teachers at their old ugly, I'm sorry that was mean to me. But once again I digress they were always hanging off each other those two kissing and necking and kissing all the time. Very annoying, well at least to me. Well I have no doubt that eventually they would crawl into bed together, and you know amazingly I was right. We'd never connected that Ramsey's rage would transfer to anywhere else in his life, well besides fighting, but it did. You know why I remember her? Because I remember coming back very late at night or very early in the morning whichever you prefer, to our new dorm/home it was dark and late and she was covering the floor. And Ramsey was on the ground shaking. Now most of you probably think it's pathetic for a man cry I do not at least not then. He had killed her, in the same blind mindless bloodlust that he fought with. But how do I know it was her you say? I do because I saw her face and most of her head and neck were still lying beside him. Worst. Is that we weren't full-fledged knights yet six months only six months but that didn't matter because if Ramsey was caught he'd be thrown in jail for murder. They wouldn't care if it wasn't his fault. It wouldn't matter if he didn't mean to. And to the Empire if you're loyal to them they don't care what you do. The point of this is, is that we need to clean up the body. And during the night as we cleaned off the walls that beautiful girls blood was covering, we were both shaking and crying. me I was scared we'd get caught and I would be found of what I am, and Ramsey it was despair that he had killed and completely without meaning to the woman he loved. Now maybe love is a little bit far, maybe adolescent lust is a little bit better description. But we cleaned up the body no one suspected, no one asked. She disappeared. "Six months only six more months Ramsey" I said. Ramsey can be an idiot, of first was not the last. a month later he thought he could handle it just like fighting, he thought he could handle it. He couldn't. In our dorm room that's still smells like blood. and now reeked like death. Finally six months came and passed and so did the girls, he never meant for it to happen, he never meant to take it that far. But he always did. At least I didn't have to clean up his mess anymore we had graduated and had our own lodgings on the castle grounds. For Ramsey it looked like he was going to get a chance to be on the elite infantry unit very dangerous but it would fit Ramsey well. I was going in to be commander, practicing my drill voice and all that crap. We thought it would get better if Ramsey got all the killing out on the field you know. But it got worse, and worse. Until it stopped no more girls. Sad I know, now his face was covered but only with his hands, and never again would he come to see the light again. That is what he would say to me. Only I by his side. Death in one hand, and despair in the other he hacked down whoever was in his way. He quickly climbed the ladder of power. Even without meaning to. Every now and then someone would disappear usually a woman, but on occasions a man too if he made Ramsey mad enough. Don't get me wrong I was climbing up the ladder to just in different ways. I planned, picked prodded and poked until everything was just right then we attack. But I hated it I was attacking my people, my very own people I had to do something. And really that's how Sherry came into the picture.

hay evry one whitch is praticly no one
lets keep this short and sweet.
read my dairys of a dead cereal killer
i think it has some brillence in it

i want TO KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING TELL ME!

if you don't like it be brutal i am i expect the same out of every one else

love to all

thanks
Em

one dead as he layed on the floor one dead and there would be more. one after another two after three, only life and that price can be free.
kill me, kill me, and kill me agin
don't laghf she cried softly to him don't laghf at my pain don't laghf at your sin. there is no pride in the blood that covers this floor.

he smiled moulth wild as he pulled her tight no ones end she cried as her blood smiled on the floor no one cried that night at least not anymore.

in the ege of minds
is were they say we play
in the ending of sweet time
is when i end my day.
the sweeping of sand on the beaches ashour
dead and alone we lie ever more
there is not a day i don't think of you but there is not a time when i want to see you
alone you left me not on a beach or a shour
not evern your freind and not even more
i moved on not seing your face and you don't care
you would never wait you dont care you never did i was just someone you sat at a table with and now ill end something i dident mean to write
an end to an end



i sound really
slightly,ok more then slightly goshy but it is or was becuse i havent seen this person in a while a year or too and they pritty much were my best freind and a sirius pain but im atully not sad
it was the start of my new life.

but even now im not mad or sad so im attuly in a good mood

and sydny youll prodly know i DON'T WANT ANY COMMENTS GRRR (just kiding)